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Name: Mike
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 9/28/1987
Gender: Male
Interests: random things
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Member Since:
2/23/2003
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| So i was going through a few old things and i found an old poem i wrote when i was really down and out and emo-ed out a few months ago. Its weird how my best writing comes out when i'm emotionally distressed.
"I was walking upon my life's road one day
When someone stepped in and barred my way.
T'was the goddess of passion and unrequited love,
Jealousy, stopped me in my tracks with a shove.
She remarked, "Ye are without love I see,
Would ye like to recieve a gift from me?"
"What is this gift?" I remarked
"What kind of emotional journey must I embark?"
With a knowing smirk and a twinkle in the eye,
Against my will she pulled me to her side.
"I will stay with thee until the end of time
Or until the arrival of another love that ye may find."
Being fools as humans are,
I accepted her comfort and watched others from afar.
The goddess spun her web on me,
weaving yarns of distrust for all to see.
Why must my heart cause me such woe,
When love's comfort was all i wanted to know.
With a soft voice she whispered in my ear,
"With me here, Love can never be near."
"Then away with thee!" I cried and threw her off,
She glared at me, and stalked away with a scoff.
Over her shoulder, she said as she withdrew,
"Love is a fickle goddess, she blesses only a few."
"Don't bother wishing and hoping because I will return
And the wrath of a goddess you will sorrowfully learn.
But until then, be strong in your hopes and dreams
Love is always closer than she may seem."
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| So the legendary Wong fu productions made another video that my bro showed me.
http://www.wongfuproductions.com/jang.html
Its really funny. Illustrates the nice guy dilemma.
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| This was definitely me for a while.
Anyway. I'm still finding out what needs to be done.
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| I've been out of the loop for a few months now. I finally dropped Engineering as of last week.
It's one thing to admit to someone else that you've failed. It's a completely different thing to admit it to yourself. It took me 4 weeks to finally convince myself to throw in the towel. But now i feel as though a burden has been lifted off my shoulders. So come next year or a few quarters after (depending on classes), I will be graduating with a Business Economics major and Material Science Engineering minor.... and maybe an accounting minor if i can scratch it in.
These past few weeks of evaluating my life brought me to realize how little i really know about myself and the world in general. Most of it was based in anxiety for the future though. But it's all good now.
Thank you to all of those who helped me through this rough time. It'll be good times ahead. And if not... we'll make it so.
I've read some of my previous posts and holy crap i'm emo in those... i'm usually cheerful in real life.
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| But it doesn't feel any better.
I think song lyrics always make me feel better. It's kinda sad to say this when someone else's poetry answers the dire pleas of my own soul for comfort. Why can't I pick myself up, dust off and keep living life?
"And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you're not around"
-"Naeive Orleans" - Anberlin
"When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down onto your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Was she standing in my room?
No she's not, because she's gone, gone, gone, gone...
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once, you say good-bye"
-"Dreaming with a broken heart" - John Mayer
"We're the new face of failure
Prettier and younger but not any better off
Bulletproof loneliness at best, at best..."
-"I'm like a lawyer how I'm always trying to get you off me (me & you)" - Fall out Boy
"
You give your hand to me
And then you say, "Hello."
And I can hardly speak,
My heart is beating so.
And anyone can tell
You think you know me well.
Well, you don't know me.
(no you don't know me)
No you don't know the one
Who dreams of you at night;
And longs to kiss your lips
And longs to hold you tight
Oh I'm just a friend.
That's all I've ever been.
Cause you don't know me.
(no you don't know me)
For I never knew the art of making love,
Though my heart aches with love for you.
Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by.
A chance that you might love me too.
(love me too)
You give your hand to me,
And then you say, "Goodbye."
I watched you walk away,
Beside the lucky guy
Oh, you'll never ever know
The one who loved you so.
Well, you don't know me
(For I never knew the art of making love, )
(Though my heart aches with love for you. )
Afraid and shy, I let my chance go by.
A chance that you might love me too.
(love me too)
Oh, you give your hand to me,
And then you say, "Goodbye."
I watched you walk away,
Beside the lucky guy
Oh, you'll never ever know
The one who loved you so.
Well, you don't know me
(you don't love me, you don't know me"
-"You don't know me" - Ray Charles
Valentine's isn't a friend.
I'm healing still but i can finally move on.
It's a nice and frustrating place to be.
Here's some of my own lyrics for ya.
"I was walking upon my life's road one day
When someone stepped in and barred my way.
T'was the goddess of passion and unrequited love,
Jealousy, stopped me in my tracks with a shove.
She remarked, "Ye are without love I see,
Would ye like to recieve a gift from me?"
"What is this gift?" I remarked
"What kind of emotional journey must I embark?"
With a knowing smirk and a twinkle in the eye,
Against my will she pulled me to her side.
"I will stay with thee until the end of time
Or until the arrival of another love that ye may find."
Being fools as humans are,
I accepted her comfort and watched others from afar.
The goddess spun her web on me,
weaving yarns of distrust for all to see.
Why must my heart cause me such woe,
When love's comfort was all i wanted to know.
With a soft voice she whispered in my ear,
"With me here, Love can never be near."
"Then away with thee!" I cried and threw her off,
She glared at me, and stalked away with a scoff.
Over her shoulder, she said as she withdrew,
"Love is a fickle goddess, she blesses only a few."
"Don't bother wishing and hoping because I will return
And the wrath of a goddess you will sorrowfully learn.
But until then, be strong in your hopes and dreams
Love is always closer than she may seem."
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